picture by Fred Birault

15 years ago, I attended my first class of Colors. I remember going out in the street and not seeing the same world. the sky would transform into a palette of blues, a chair would be cleverly organized shades of brown and beige. i did not think the world anymore, i was seeing it. A totally new reality came to my eyes. the very idea of one other possibility made me realize i was in a matrix… You know a bit of what has followed.

the other day i had to explain my work as a color Designer to someone. you have already seen here “la Femme Couleurs“, me “making blue“. I could explain everything, how i came to colors, my conferences, my studies, how they brought me to meditation, to a more complex inner exploration. etc. etc. all was great until he said : great, can you show us now!

i was about to cry because i had nothing to show. this is not the way i process. BUT IT IS SO DUMB NOT TO BE AVLE TO SHOW ANYTHING WHEN YOU WORK ON COLORS. MAXI FUUUUUUCCCKKKK!

i went out in the streets in total despair and then my agent just grabbed me out there : i was about to drown down the bottomless hole of illegitimacy. do you know it?!!she stares at me : “your whole being is Color, you are going to show them and everything is going to be fine.”

almost instantaneously the little girl grew up to a passionate woman. we began to brainstorm and got this idea to work on that footage. reuniting all my images, on a music i love and used already. i spent almost a week on it. feeling thrilled, joyful and proud. and i could play, and i could create. and he understood everything.

gratitude, gratitude! i am so blessed to be so well surrounded. it took me time. this experience also teaches me that sometimes there are several “me”. and it is a mistake to listen to the first and loudest voice. and it takes time to explore ones vulnerability, but this leads to an inner benevolence that makes me alive.

a word also to tell you i have opened a private group through my fanpage facebook et prépare here à Q&A. so do not hésite to explore the group there and ask your questions to me here in the comments.

love to you all!